I honestly do not know what to post. I first thought of being academic by posting something about the subjects I teach but I can't even hit the first key of my notebook. I even thought of blogging some good and not so good things that happened in the past NDKC intramurals but I really do not know how to start.
Well, most probably I am just bothered of the news that I received at lunch time. That news about an event that will happen next week will completely spoil the "celebration" that I have long been hoping for. I even consider it more important than my own birthday because I rarely celebrate it.
I am not blaming anyone. Someone even told me that it might be rescheduled but still I cannot resist myself from feeling bad because it might just blow up everything. God! I do not know what to say. I am just wondering....
- Am I unfair?
- Am I too bad?
- Am I difficult to love?
- Am I worthless?
- Am I just a toy?
- Am I not worthy to love and be loved?
- What is happening?
- Why does things most of the time go against what I hope it would be?
- Why am I alone?
- Why is time so unreasonable?
I hope time will give me the answers.